Camille, Biloxi and the Big Blow

Hurricane season’s back on the weather reports again — all those swirling graphics and tight‑lipped meteorologists pointing at the Gulf — and every time I watch them I get pulled straight back to one night in Biloxi. The night Camille came for us, and I realized some storms don’t just hit, they remember you.
When Camille Came Calling — And Found Us in Biloxi
Every coastal town has that storm — the one people still talk about like it happened last night. For Biloxi, Mississippi, that storm was Hurricane Camille, August 1969. A Category 5 buzz‑saw that didn’t just hit the coast — it carved its name into it.

And we were there.

Joanie — yes, that Joanie, the one I zig‑zagged across America with, three kids in the back seat, living on forged prescriptions, stolen returns, and whatever luck we could scrape together — she and I were holed up in a motel in Biloxi when Camille decided to make her entrance.

It wasn’t a fancy place. Just one of those Gulf Coast motels with a flickering neon sign and an air conditioner that rattled like it was trying to escape the window frame. We were just passing through, same as always. A night or two, then back on the road. But storms don’t care about your itinerary.

Camille came in fast — too fast. No slow buildup, no polite warning. Just a sudden shift in the air, a pressure drop you could feel in your teeth, and then the wind started talking in that voice storms use when they mean business.

The kids were restless, Joanie was pacing, and I kept looking out the motel window like I expected the Gulf itself to come walking up the street. The rain hit sideways. The walls shook. You could hear things outside breaking — metal, wood, whatever wasn’t nailed down well enough. Camille didn’t knock. She kicked the damn door in.

People talk about the storm surge — 24, 25 feet of water rolling in like a moving wall — but what I remember most is the sound. A freight train mixed with a scream. A kind of roaring that makes you understand, deep down, that nature doesn’t give a damn about you or your motel room or your borrowed life.

And here’s the part that matters:
We survived because that motel sat on a hill — just enough elevation, just far enough inland, to keep the surge from swallowing us whole.
If we’d been a quarter‑mile closer to the water, or down on flat ground, this story might’ve ended differently. But luck — or fate, or whatever you want to call it — put us in a place that stayed above the worst of Camille’s rage.

When the sun finally crawled up, Biloxi looked scraped clean. Boats in places boats shouldn’t be. Houses shifted off foundations. Debris everywhere. Camille had come through like she owned the place.

Later storms would come — Katrina being the big one — but for a long time, Camille was the yardstick. The one everyone measured fear against.

And for us, it was another chapter in that wild, dangerous, beautiful stretch of life with Joanie and the kids — the years when we lived on nerve, instinct, and whatever the universe handed us. Camille didn’t stop us. She just became part of the story.

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1976 — The Year I Came Home to a Place I’d Never Been Before

Boston — and the whole country — is celebrating 250 years of existence, and at the same time I’m celebrating 50 years since I first came to the place that has always felt like home. Half a century ago I walked into Boston for the first time, not knowing a damn thing about the city except that something in it pulled at me. Now, as the nation marks its big anniversary, I’m marking mine — fifty years in a place I had never been that somehow felt like I had never left.

Some time in the late days of ’75 or the early days of ’76, I crawled out of a produce dumpster in Baltimore. Yes, really. I was living at Jonah House then, part of the Community for Creative Non‑Violence, and my Sunday duties — along with my friend Phil Berrigan — were to head down to the produce terminal and gather all the discarded fruits and vegetables. The terminal had this rule: if anything hit the ground, it had to be thrown out. Didn’t matter if it was a perfect apple or a bruised banana. Somehow it never occurred to them to wash it and give it to folks who needed it.

So Sundays were our scavenger days. The terminal was closed, the gates quiet, and Phil and I could climb in and out of dumpsters at will. This wasn’t just picking things off the ground — though there was some of that — it was literal dumpster diving, hoping the bananas hadn’t liquefied and the tomatoes hadn’t turned into soup. We’d haul home whatever we could carry, wash it all, keep what Jonah House needed, then walk the neighborhood leaving bags of good food on doorsteps. We lived in one of the poorest sections of Baltimore, and this was one small way to push back against the madness.

Anyway, one day I heaved myself up out of that dumpster, and before I knew it, I was heaving myself out of another kind of dumpster — a dump called the Hillbilly Ranch, a country bar in Boston. I had decided to leave Jonah House, take my stepson Jimmy — the courts had given me custody — and make a new life in the town of the original revolutionaries.

The Hillbilly Ranch sat right on the edge of the Combat Zone, Boston’s old adult‑entertainment district — a few crooked blocks of strip joints, peep shows, porn theaters, massage parlors, and bars that didn’t pretend to be anything other than what they were. The Zone was neon and noise, hustlers and lost souls, cops who looked the other way, and a steady hum of trouble that never quite boiled over but never went cold either. It was the kind of place where the sidewalk felt alive under your feet, where you could smell beer, sweat, perfume, and desperation all mixing together in the humid night air. A carnival of the city’s underbelly, running full tilt just a stone’s throw from the Common.

And right there, tucked into that chaos, was the Hillbilly Ranch — the first place I walked into in Boston. A country‑western honky‑tonk with wagon wheels nailed to the walls, neon beer signs, wood paneling, and a floor that stuck to your boots. The crowd looked like someone shook the whole city and let whoever fell out land inside: cowboys who weren’t cowboys, bikers, hippies, sailors, Southie hard‑cases, and tourists who had no idea what they’d wandered into.

It occurs to me now that the movie Road House shows a few scenes that feel like cousins to what the Hillbilly Ranch really was — the neon, the noise, the rough crowd, the band trying to hold the room together while trouble simmered in the corners. But Road House was Hollywood danger, stuntmen and sugar glass, a fantasy of barroom violence dressed up with muscles and movie lighting. The Hillbilly Ranch was all that and more — no stuntmen, no retakes, no Patrick Swayze walking in to clean up the place. Just a real Boston honky‑tonk sitting on the edge of the Combat Zone, fed nightly by the Zone’s parade of characters.

The bathroom was a trough urinal — no stalls, no sinks, no privacy, no mercy. You went in, did your business, and hoped you didn’t slip.

But the real heartbeat of the Ranch was the music. Boston had a surprisingly strong country‑western undercurrent back then — not the polished Nashville stuff, but barroom country, Telecasters through cheap amps, fiddles that could cut glass. The Ranch was home base for the local pickers, the guys who played five nights a week and drank six. You’d get bluegrass pickers who’d show up with banjos and mandolins and turn the place into a barn dance, and honky‑tonk trios with drummers who looked like they’d slept in the van.

Touring road bands came through too — southern and midwestern groups grinding their way up the East Coast. Tight rhythm sections, steel guitar players who could make you cry, singers who’d lived every word they sang. They’d roll in, plug in, and blow the doors off the place.

And then there were the almost‑famous ones — former sidemen from bigger acts, songwriters who’d had one regional hit, guitar players who’d toured with someone you’d heard of. They’d show up, play their hearts out, and disappear into the night.

The crowd was part of the show. They leaned right up to the stage — bikers, sailors, hippies, Southie hard‑cases, and lost souls who’d wandered in from the Zone. If the band was good, the room lit up. If the band was bad, the room let them know. It was a working‑class music bar, and the musicians respected that.

It was loud, sweaty, raw — no fancy lighting, no sound engineer, just a stage, a few amps, and a band trying to win over a room full of characters. It was the kind of place where a fiddle solo could stop a fight, or start one.

And funny enough, for all the grit and neon and honky‑tonk chaos of the Hillbilly Ranch, my first Fourth of July in Boston was the exact opposite — standing out on the Esplanade at the Hatch Shell, watching Arthur Fiedler conduct what turned out to be his last performance at the Hatch Shell.

Arthur Fiedler wasn’t just a conductor — he was Boston’s heartbeat in a white jacket. He’d led the Pops for half a century, dragging classical music out of the velvet‑rope concert halls and putting it right in the hands of regular people. He made the Pops a Boston institution, a family tradition, a summer ritual. He believed music belonged to everyone — the dockworkers, the office clerks, the kids running around on the grass — and he played like he was giving the whole city a gift. When Fiedler stepped onto that Hatch Shell stage, Boston showed up. He was as much a part of the city as the Charles River itself.

One night I’m in a bar where a fiddle solo might start a fight, and a few months later I’m listening to the Boston Pops under the summer sky, the river breathing behind us, the whole city gathered like a family. Boston could swing from rough to beautiful without warning, and I was learning that fast.

And standing there that night, I knew I had found my new home — a place I had never been that somehow felt like I had never left.

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    When April Teaches You How to Feel Warm Again

    Some days don’t announce themselves. They don’t kick down the door or roll in with thunder. They just show up quietly, like an old friend who doesn’t need to knock. Today was one of those days.

    The official coastal temperature — the one the weather folks love to toss around — sat at a stubborn 47°. Cooler at the coast, they say, as if we haven’t lived long enough to know the ocean keeps its own personality. But then I stepped outside, and the sun hit me in that particular April way, the way that says, Relax. I’ve got this.

    And just like that, I felt better already.

    MSN Weather, in its polite little digital voice, tried to explain it:
    “Dominant factor: humidity.”
    Which is really just science’s way of saying the air has softened. The sharp edges have rounded off. Your skin isn’t fighting the cold anymore. The breeze isn’t stealing heat from you like it did all winter. And the sun — well, the sun is finally acting like it remembers what month it is.

    Stand in the right spot — out of the sea breeze, tucked against a sun‑warmed wall, maybe near a patch of pavement that’s been soaking up the morning light — and the whole world shifts. The thermometer can cling to its 47°, but your body knows better. Your body says 59°, maybe more. Your body says, Hey, we made it. Look at us now.

    That’s the thing about April.
    It’s not just a month.
    It’s a mood.
    It’s the first real exhale after months of bracing yourself. It’s the moment you realize the warmth isn’t a rumor anymore. It’s here. It’s real. And it’s trying its best to meet you halfway.

    So yes, the coast may be cooler.
    But today?
    Today feels warm enough to believe in again.
    Warm enough to loosen your shoulders.
    Warm enough to remind you that you’re still here, still breathing, still capable of feeling good for no grand reason at all.

    And sometimes that’s all a person needs — a little sun, a little shelter from the breeze, and the quiet surprise of feeling warm again.

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    Gridiron for Leg Irons

    In the winter of
    Nineteen hundred and sixty-four
    Something was going on,
    Called the Vietnam War.

    But all we could hear,
    At the stadium that night
    Was the roar of the crowd,
    As we continued our fight.

    But older friends
    Had joined the fray,
    And died in a swamp
    Many worlds away.

    The play was called.
    And I started my run.
    As another friend died
    Under the gun.

    The play I remember
    Was Buck-forty-five
    As the government kept telling
    Us, lie after lie.

    Then came the day
    They said I must go.
    But I stood on the line and shouted
    My NO!!

    They locked me in chains,
    Both hands and
    Both feet.
    But the mind of the boy
    Would not face defeat.

    The judge said,
    Son, “What will you do?”
    I said, “Your honor.
    It is all up to you.”

    If you think I was wrong, then
    To jail, I must go.
    If you believe I was right
    There’s a great Broadway show.
    Perhaps we could go.

    And with those words
    In the blink of an eye
    I traded the gridiron
    For leg irons
    And two years
    At Danbury FCI.

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    Rambling Harbor Dispatch: The Bill Comes Due

    In the late 1960s, while napalm lit the skies over Vietnam, a quieter rebellion flickered across American kitchens. It wasn’t shouted in the streets—it was whispered through unpaid phone bills. The government had slapped a 10% excise tax on telephone service to help fund the war. And hundreds of thousands of citizens said, “No thanks.” They refused to pay, not out of stinginess, but out of conscience. I was one of those. They called it war tax resistance. I call it dialing into dignity.

    By 1972, as many as half a million Americans were hanging up on war—literally—by withholding the tax. The IRS attempted to pursue them, once even seizing a man’s car over $2.44. That’s not enforcement. That’s bureaucratic burlesque.

    Fast forward to 2025, and the bill has come due again. Only this time, it’s not for war—it’s for one man’s legal battle against the government. President Trump, facing a thicket of lawsuits, wants taxpayers to help cover the costs of his defense. The irony? It’s thicker than a Nixon tape.
    In the Vietnam era, we resisted paying for bombs. Today, we’re being asked to pay for briefs. Legal briefs. Filed by a man who once promised to drain the swamp but now wants us to subsidize his wade through it.
    Where’s the opt-out box on that invoice?

    This isn’t just about money. It’s about memory. About whether public funds should be used to defend personal grievances. About whether the American people are shareholders in someone else’s vendetta. And about whether resistance still has a place in the age of auto-pay and algorithmic distraction.

    It may be time to revive the spirit of the phone tax rebels, not with rotary dials and mimeographed pamphlets, but with satire, sanctuary, and a refusal to subsidize secrecy. Maybe it’s time to hang up again—this time on legal tab transfers disguised as patriotism.

    Whether it’s $2.44 or $2.4 million, the principle remains: we should not be forced to pay for what violates our conscience.

    And here’s my thought: what if you decided to withhold even $ 5 from any tax you might owe, along with a long explanation about why you are doing this? And sure, that would really make no difference, but sometimes it’s the symbolism, the meaning behind the action.

    Donald Trump is reportedly seeking reimbursement of approximately $4.2 million. So, along with our $5, what if we lean on major companies? Corporate Tax Revenue: In 2024, the federal government collected roughly $425 billion in corporate income taxes.

    Imagine if Apple, Amazon, and Google said: “We’re withholding 3% until Congress passes climate legislation.” Or until war funding is redirected to healthcare. And not one cent to Donald Trump’s defense. It would be the modern equivalent of hanging up on war—only this time, with billions instead of phone bills.

    3% Withheld: That’s about $12.75 billion withheld.
    Sure, I’m Dan Don Quixote, still maybe swinging at windmills, but this is my first thought tonight. If you have a better one, don’t hesitate to share it.

    Rambling Harbor remembers. And resists.

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